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Bleak Week (need to go meet some Local Flemish Giant Bunnies)

Just when I though I was out...they pull me back in!

Is that a mis-quote? Is it from a Pacino film?

I have had the worst week that I have had in a very long time. I'd been gliding on some nice optimism for a long time. But the combination of 1. this 6-month long 'thing' that seemed so romantically and compatibility promising for the future to be over now, I am sure. 2. For our estate agent to announce a rent increase for me and Jack going from £795 to £1,200 (!!!!!!!!!!) with 4 weeks notice. 3. For a combination of dentists to be charging £1,300 to me for a (half) tooth that doesn't even hurt out of me. and 4. For me and for me and Jim to have our first semi-petty fallout over Nefertiti stuff ( I feel sad and scared that we're gunna drift)is the mouldy cherry at the base of this rotten sundae. Yah know, I could be so much worse....I'm personally squeezing all the perspective out the tube. Even on the money-side thing - I've got savings so I'll be okay, tho need to keep them for the narrow house boat fund - maybe if I apply for a boat loan now I might be successful?

Celia's not doing well physically and she is the one consistent ball of sunshine, Mary's funeral is next week and Mum is still really bad - those are the real, serious life things I can't control.

I just want to love and be loved back via a beautiful adventure on a narrow boat.

I want my Mum to get her life back again

I want Channel Four to commission our DAMN BRILLIANT TV SHOW!

Next time smiles and anecdotes that'll make you piss yourself. It. Will. Be. Fine.

4:47 p.m. - 2023-04-13


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